Thinking "Out Loud"

Deep breaths....deeeeeeeep breaths. I'm just a little overwhelmed right now. So much is going on and I'm just starting to realize some things.

Numero uno, training is over. That means it is just about time for me to be out on the phones by MYSELF, with no one to tell me what to tell the angry customers, I have to figure it out on my own, and figure out how to fix a treadmill, bike, elliptical, or even a weight system....errrrr? What?! I keep being told that it takes a good 2.5 months to have it all really click, it's my boss that keeps telling me that, but I have the type of personality where I want to feel comfortable in it NOW and know I can do it NOW! I guess I'm just going to have to deal. Because that sure is not happening NOW. Thank goodness it's almost the weekend...

Numero dos, I'm still a full-time student and I still have a lot of homework. But do I still have the motivation or energy to do my homework after a long day of work? Negative. Craaaap. You see, I should be writing a report that's due tomorrow night at 8, or doing a science lab that is due tomorrow as well, but instead I am here...complaining. Oh shux, I'm sorry. Enough of that.

My life is changing all around me, uh duh! I should have known this when I said yes to Kohn and slipped that gorgeous ring on my finger! I have to cook, I have to clean (I already did those things before, but now I have to REALLY cook, not just ramen), I have to be extra more careful with my money...I don't go to class on campus and interact with my classmates in person, I go to class online and type at my classmates. I don't go to the library and do group projects. I don't get on campus at 7:45 in the morning and not leave until 7 at night anymore. I don't get to go to the gym every night like I used to and spend more than an hour there. Now I have to try to find time for that all. I have to work 8 hours of my day, make sure the apartment is clean, make sure we get fed, make sure we actually have groceries, and THEN I can do homework (because I'm sorry, but Kohn is more important to me than my homework haha), and then I can see if I have time to work out. Which is not much fun for me, because I'm a freak about that kind of thing, and I always think that because I miss one day of working out that I just instantly gained 10 pounds, and really, it's ridiculous. BUT...I'm not complaining. I'll take this all to be with Kohn for eternity. It is soooo worth it. As much as I loved the student life, because I really did love just being in the library doing my homework, I love Kohn much much more!

Last night we had our final interviews to get our temple recommends, we passed with flying colors by the way :) and well...we left the interview with both of us being super baby hungry! hahaha huh?!? Yeah...President Sallisbury talked about being parents and how we shouldn't wait tooooo long. But don't worry, it will still be AT LEAST a year. It's so crazy to think of us as being parents though! Goodness we're not even married yet, but we will be in like 15 days! :) It's 16, but tomorrow will be 15, and it's practically tomorrow. So yeah :)

I don't know, I'm stressing lately, and I just need to breath. Writing definitely helps me calm down, so this has helped a lot. Sorry that it was all basically ranting and raving, but sometimes we all need to do it, and this is the best way for me to do it right now :)

Next post will be extra positive, promise! :)

Oh, just thought I'd say I love this boy! :)

                                                                      Peace & Blessins

I know a Mormon boy, he is my pride and joy....

I usually start a post with a title set and what I want to say pretty much lined out...but not this time. This time I just got on to write a post because I wanted to write. Well, mainly I wanted to brag about how amazing my wonderful fiance is! :)

He has made me so happy from day one! But just recently I've been realizing all over again just how lucky I am, how blessed I am! There are a million and ten things about Kohn that just make me smile the biggest, cheesiest smile!

Kohn is one of the most thoughtful people you will ever meet, he puts his best foot forward to make sure EVERYONE feels good about themselves. And that's only one of the many reasons that I love him. But obviously, there are many more! Here's just a FEW great things....

So I've recently started my new job, and let's be honest, it's not easy. Training is a week and a half, and we're down to 2 days left. Well, towards the end of last week I was starting to freak out a little bit, well a lot bit. I'll admit, I cried some. BECAUSE I am nervous and sorta stressing about everything in the world right now. I don't know much about the mechanics of treadmills, ellipticals, bikes, etc....and that's what I'm supposed to know. But of course, that's what the training is for. Well one day in particular, the training wasn't exactly making very much sense to me, AT ALL, and Kohn came and saw me on one of my breaks. To sum it up: he asked how it was going, and of course the tears started to emerge. He got this concerned look on his face, seriously the most sincere thing. Then he started saying things that made me feel like I was going to be the best at this job. That's how he is with everything though, he makes me feel like numero uno!

Also, Saturday was bridals! Yay! They were lots of fun, the weather was perfect, and Kohn looked super snazzy! :) My dress has a looooooong train and it's pretty great fun. Well Kohn was the sweetest little guy and carried it around for the hour and a half we were doing pictures! And he made me feel beauuutiful! He was pretty much pounding it in my head, which is great of him because I struggle to believe it myself some times. He always makes me feel beautiful though, even when I'm in his big sweats with no make up. Oh I love him!

Sunday Kohn spoke in church. He did AMAZING and made his mom and myself tear up. After he was done his mom leaned over to me and asked if I was ready to be a bishop's wife soon. Well...I better be. In fact, I'm the next Sister Monson ;)

I have some silly concerns in life and sometimes just need  to talk about them and vent. And when I have these moments I do not shut up. Sometimes I think I'm driving Kohn crazy, especially after I've finished one rant 20 minutes later. But he just smiles at me, adds his two cents, then gives me a sweet kiss and tells me he loves me. I can talk to him about anything, thank goodness, because it's supposed to be that way. But, I never hesitate and wonder if he'll be upset...even if I know he'll be upset I still go for it ;) haha that's just how comfortable we are with each other. He's my best friend.

At my last bridal shower I got SPOILED. We got a TON of incredible things and I think we are going to be pretty well off for the beginning of our marriage! One thing I got was a bedside table from my momma and sisterssss! Kohn had to assemble it. So, I did homework and he put it together. He is such a perfectionist, it's precious. He put a little, itty bitty "scrape type thing" in the wood, but it's covered now with another piece of wood. But he was upset with himself. I told him it was okay, it was just going in our room, I couldn't see it anyway and it looked great. But then he proceeded to tell me that if he had been putting it together just for himself he wouldn't have cared so much, but since he was doing it for me it was a big deal. Because he wanted it to be perfect for me....how did I get so lucky?

Kohn keeps me in line. ALL the time. When we were doing bridals our dear mothers were there, and of course while we were taking pictures they were doing their thing and talking about us, the wedding, all that good stuff. My mom mentioned how Kohn is so good for me because sometimes I stress a little too much, I'll admit it, it's true, but Kohn is able to calm me down. I never thought much of it but now that I do think of it, that is soooo true. I freak out about things I have no control over, and then Kohn reminds me that I have no control over it, and I instantly feel better. Lots of other people have said that same thing to me before, and it's never worked. I guess just the fact that it's coming from Kohn makes it work.

He also keeps me in line as far as money is concerned. Let's just say if it wasn't for him we would probably be poor like a week into our marriage. Because I'm not smart when it comes to saving/spending/whatevs...maybe he'll rub off on me one day! :)


Kohn is such a great sport! We were looking through mission pictures yesterday and there are so many great pictures with him and a bunch of little kids. One of my very favorites though was one where he had like 3 little girls around him, doing his hair and make up :) he looked very beautiful! Also, one Sunday we were at his house and his nieces were there. I don't really remember what brought it on, but Kohn got his toenails painted bright pink and bright purple. Not only his toenails, but his toes too. They also looked beautiful as well! Then, on Saturday, before bridals I wanted to get a pedicure and get my nails done. So Kohn came with me. He sat by my side and got a pedicure too, and got a manicure. It was fun to do with him! And he is still very manly! ;)        

   What an amazing man I am marrying! I truly am the luckiest girl in the entire world! I am excited to spend forever and always with him, starting in like 18.5 days! :) There are so many experiences to have and I'm excited to experience them all with my best friend!

Can I get your number with the area code first, please?

Did you know....when I was running on the treadmill the other day and I hit the speed up button I knew that the console was sending a 5 voltage d/c signal to the motor controller through the blue wire...if I needed to adjust my  running belt I could with no problem and know exactly which way to turn each bolt? Yeaaaaaahh.I'm pretty much a treadmill professional.....or not so much.

 Almost everything that they say in training for my new job is just a little bit confusing for my peewee brain. In one ear, out the other. Everyone keeps saying it will get better...all I know is they better be right, or I'm not making it past the 2 month probation period! ;)

So, what exactly is my job? I don't think I ever quite said. Well, when I took the job, my understanding of it was that I'll be answering phone calls and assisting ICON customers...I might have heard the word troubleshooting a couple of times but didn't realize how intense that word was! Now that I've been in training for a week my new understanding of the job is...I'm pretty much a little technician that angry customers can speak to over the phone. I've gotta know all the nitty gritty about the treadmills, bikes, ellipticals, etc....and help customers figure out what is wrong with their machine, and figure out the diagnosis. All over the phone. Phone conversations are hard as it is. Oh well, I will succeed....I've still got 3 days of training before I'm on the phone by myself...oh my, I didn't realize how little time that was until now :/ wish me luck!

Anyways....enough about that. So. Um. 20 days til I get to marry the love of my life! Those 20 days are just going to fly! Being super busy, and always trying to fit time in for everything, there's no way the time could go slow! The closer it gets the more real it seems. It's just starting to become real? Really Haley? Well...yeah. Only because the past months I've felt like I was just in a little fairy-tale. Ya know, with my prince charming and all! But it's like...the other day I bought my temple clothing and my garments...buying that stuff made it seem more real than anything has so far. Even more real than when I bought my wedding dress!

Today we are doing bridals. We are doing the whole "Black Tie Session" which is indeed the ones where the groom comes along with me. Some people are against it because he's not supposed to see my dress til our wedding day, but let's face it, November 5th is more than likely going to be a bit too chilly for my liking. So if we could just have to worry about group pictures and what not at the temple and not worry about spending an extra hour out there doing Kohn and I, then I am definitely going for it!

So we'll just be doing bridals around the temple today, and from some places where you can see the temple in the background, like a parking garage at USU. I'm soooo excited! It definitely helps that our photographer is awesome! Which reminds me, I got the engagement pictures up...on Facebook...the CD wouldn't play on my computer, so we just added them from my parents computer. I'll have to see if I can add them here from facebook....hmmm....

Alright, so it would take me 10 million years to add all the pictures the way I added this one, so I'll just share this one. Which is definitely my favorite! However, we didn't use it on our announcement. Odd. Oh well, it's going to be blown up into a big frame at the reception :)

Holy goodness, I'm ecstatic! And life is good, even if my job scares me! I'm starting to manage my time better, so maybe I'll be able to post here a little bit more. But, who am I kidding, once I get married I probably won't have a lot of time to post so much. We've already got boxes and bags and tons of things all over our apartment that we just don't know what to do with! Let's just say I've been spoiled at bridal showers so far...and there's still more to come! :)

It's All Downhill From Here...

When I say it's all downhill from here I mean that in the best way ever! After today is over there will be no more certain number of months left until the wedding! Now we can start counting down weeks, and then days, and then hours, and basically I'm just sooooo excited! :) Things are starting to come together and I LOVE seeing it! I have a bridal shower this Saturday, then bridals the next Saturday, then another bridal shower the next Saturday, then the next Saturday is my endowments, and then....the next Saturday will be our wedding!!!! Love, love, love, love, love!!! I thought that the last 3 months were going to be the longest 3 months of my life but I seriously cannot believe how fast they have gone! Time is such a funny thing!

Oh, exciting news! I got my temple dress today, the dress I'll be getting married in! Wahoo! Yep, I'm just going to get married in my temple dress, and then switch into the wedding dress for afterwards and what not! Probably cause my dress is ivory or somethin ;) but I'm super excited either way! I get to wear TWO gorgeous dresses that day, I'm so lucky! Not only am I lucky because of the gorgeous dresses but because of what that day means! Oh it's so great! Not only do I get to be sealed to the love of my life for time and all eternity, but I also get to marry into an awesome family! I could not ask for a better mother-in-law, for a better father-in-law, for better "siblings-in-law" or whatever you want to call them ;) and of course my new cute nephew and 3 1/2 nieces! :) I love them all so much!

Speaking of nieces and nephews....my brother and his wifey are having a baby! So Kohn and I will either have 2 nephews or 5 nieces by the end of April! Yay! I love babies!!!!! But....Kohn and I won't have any for quite some time, so don't get any ideas! ;)

Oh, so you know how sometimes you feel like you know a lot of people? And then other times you feel like you don't know a lot of people? Well...Kohn and I know A LOT of people. Addresses will be the death of me. We want to start sending our announcements on Monday, we've got a lot of typing and printing of labels to do by then! Humph. Oh well, oh well....it will all be worth it :)

Okay so now I'm going to share some lovely engagement pictures! I just got the CD and I'm sooooo ecstatic! But before I plop these pictures on here let me share with you a VERY happy story as to how I was able to get this CD tonight....I'm taking online classes right now. In one of my classes we have an online meeting in a virtual classroom every Wednesday night at 8. I've been running around like a crazy person all day long doing wedding stuff, and I came to Weston this evening to get my dress from the lady that altered it and to get my mock bouquet for bridals and of course my CD :) Well...the clock was starting to get closer to 8 and I needed to be heading back to my apartment for my class, oh and my CD was still burning. But I REALLY wanted my CD, so I was just going to watch the recording of the class later. But it got to be 8 so I just went onto my class on my parents computer and what do you know?!?! Class got canceled! Okay this is so great because it's like "Hello, blessing!!" Because I wouldn't have been able to stay logged on for the whole class anyway because I left around 8:15! Alright, so you may not be as excited as I am about this...but I think it's great! :)

Oh dear, dear, dear. I'm writing this like an hour later than the above ^ entry. The pictures turned out great, but my lap top is being not so smart and it won't pull the pictures up at the moment, and let's face it, I'm tired. So....until next time :) sorry!